And God Wept

 

The young boy grew into a fine young man,

Quick and strong.

And God smiled.

 

He stayed in the temple,

And led the elders round in circles

With his questions and comments.

And God had a good chuckle.

 

He made a name for himself,

As teacher and healer,

In consultation with his Father,

And God looked on in pride.

 

They flogged him

And hung him on a cross to die.

Mocking and jeering,

While his friends all fled.

And God wept.

 

Written on Good Friday,  14 April, 2017

 

 

Good Friday, 14 April, 2017

 

 

 

 

 

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Lenten Meditation Number 24: Fear

 

Readings:  Phil 2:5-8

Matt 26:36-41

What do you fear most? Snakes? Spiders? The dark? Being attacked and beaten up? Being in constant pain? Death? We all have fears of one sort or another that we have to deal with. We may try to push them out of sight and get on with life, or we may be overwhelmed by them and find they interfere with our lives. But fear is also there in order to help us, to keep us safe.

Too little and we get hurt;

too much and we are paralysed –

so we fear the dark,

the assailant,

fire, water, malevolence,

the unknown.

 

We fear our inner darkness too;

our own ability to harm and

the consequences of our actions.

Too little and we could go very wrong,

too much and we are paralysed.

 

The fear of God?

The great unknown,

all powerful Judge and Lord of Hosts?

Too little and we disregard

his righteousness and justice,

to our own harm:

too much and we disregard

his love and goodness

and are paralysed by despair.

 

And the fear of death?

We all face it,

The unknown, inevitable,

and final experience of life,

from which there is no coming back.

It is sometimes so sudden that there are no good-byes,

sometimes so prolonged and painful, could we endure it?

We are afraid.

What can we do about our fears? During Holy Week we try and enter again into the experiences of Jesus and the disciples during that first Holy Week two thousand years ago. We know the disciples were suddenly thrown into great fear and they all fled as Jesus was arrested. But was Jesus himself afraid? Was it fear that made him pray so intensely in the Garden? “My Father, if it is possible let this cup pass from me.” Then when he woke the disciples and complained that they had fallen asleep instead of keeping vigil with him, he said, “The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Was he talking from his own experience? He was fully human we believe, so surely he would have felt afraid to carry through what God was asking him to do. Yet he went through with it.

We tend to think that Jesus could do it because he was God incarnate. It was the God side of him, as it were, that enabled him to face death on the cross. Maybe Paul saw how he was able to do it when he wrote to the Philippians that Jesus “emptied himself, ….and being found in human form, he humbled himself and became obedient to the point of death – even death on the cross.”(Phil 2:7,8) Jesus didn’t cling to any of his own desires and status, but put his Father and others first, so he didn’t desperately try to save himself above all else.

Paul followed in his footsteps and gave up everything to spread the good news about Jesus. He endured persecution, imprisonment, being beaten up and left for dead. None of has been called upon to endure so much. He seems to be impervious to it all, yet he also became discouraged and afraid. We know this, because we read that God sent him a vision in Corinth, after he thought only rejection and suffering was awaiting him, and told him “do not be afraid… for I am with you.”  (Acts 18: 9)

We will always have fear because it is a basic human instinct, but remembering two things may help us deal with it: firstly, we are new creatures in Christ who have emptied ourselves of the old self and secondly, we now have the Holy Spirit in us, to give us all the courage we need.

 

 

 

 

 

Lenten Meditation Number 23: Between Heaven and Earth

 

Readings:  John 17:14-19

Philippians 3:17-21

We have the privilege of living in a beautiful valley called The Heaven and Earth Valley in the Western Cape of South Africa, but we think it is firmly on the earth – we don’t these days think too much about the heaven bit. Heaven seems remote and vague. Could we sing this hymn of Charles Wesley today, “Strangers and pilgrims here below, this earth, we know, is not our place”? It ends “With joy upon our heads arise, we meet our Captain in the skies.”, which seems a bit ludicrous to us now. We feel right at home on earth, not strangers or pilgrims. Have we become so much part of the world that we forget, as Jesus said, that we are “in the world but not of it”? How can we live as good Christians in the world without being part of it? Without setting it at naught?

Many before us have wrestled with this, Julian of Norwich being one of them. She saw that the world was created by God yet it needs to be “despised as nothing” by us in order to love and have the uncreated God, and to be united to him.  This is because we look for our rest in the created world in which there is no rest. We can only find our true rest in God. (Julian of Norwich: Showings, Chapter 5) This led me to write the following as I wrestled with this contradiction.

How to live in this world,

And to love this world because God made it,

And yet to set it at naught,

To long only for God and his goodness –

That is the big question.

 

For I only have this world to live in,

I need to use and enjoy the things of this world,

The natural things of the earth,

And those made by human mind and hand.

I’m not a hermit or a recluse,

But part of today’s society,

Fully immersed, fully participating.

How could I set it at naught?

 

Where does one draw the line?

No longer exult in the beauty of the world,

The mountains, the ocean, the flora?

Reject all new technology?

Or embrace it and use it,

But run the risk of being seduced by it?

Where is the boundary of “the world”?

Is it even possible?

To live in the world,

And yet set at naught the things of the world?

That is my question

And I have no sure answer.

Maybe there is an answer that lies partly in our awareness and partly in our commitment. Do we ever think through this issue? Or do we just happily live as a citizen of this world with all its values and standards. Are we aware of how much Jesus turned them upside down? “You have heard it said…….but I say to you…..” Awareness leads to being open to rethink our way of being.

What are we committed to? What have we given our hearts to? To Julian it was to “the uncreated God” in whom she could find true rest and to whom she wanted to be united. She commits herself in a prayer of dedication which is as tough to say with meaning as it is lovely.

God, in your goodness, give me yourself,

For you are all I long for and need.

Anything less would not be enough –

I would always be conscious of want.

Only in you do I find everything.

Maybe if God was all we long for and need, the rest would take care of itself.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lenten Meditation Number 22: Speaking Out

 

Readings: Matthew 26: 69-75.

Luke 12:8,9,11,12.

Most of us are probably on Facebook and have umpteen “friends” all over the world. We can see day by day what each one is doing, that is, if you and your friends post your activities on Facebook.  Some post anything and everything with great openness, others are more reticent. This could go back to the personality differences we mentioned earlier, extroverts and introverts, or the generation gap. Young people today seem to be much more open with their feelings and ideas than the previous generation.

Is it any easier therefore in our day to be frank and open about our allegiance to Christ?  Maybe in a tangential way we can slip it in on Facebook through posting what we think about certain issues – our “friends” will understand. But the crunch comes when we find ourselves in a hostile environment, among people who think differently from us – those who pooh-pooh the very idea of God, those who are hedonists and have no conscience to bother them, those who are on the opposite end of the political spectrum, and those who vehemently defend their own interpretation of the Bible as the only acceptable one.  Can one, and if so, how can one speak out in those circumstances?

Both the readings from Scripture refer to Jesus-followers finding themselves among opponents. After Jesus was arrested and brought into the headquarters of the religious authorities and Peter was confronted as being one of his followers, he panicked, and did the intuitive thing – saved his own skin. He was thrown into a situation for which he was totally unprepared. Would we have done differently? In the second reading from Luke’s Gospel, Jesus foresees a time when the disciples will themselves will face hard times because of him, and they should be prepared. In Luke chapter 12 he says that when they are hauled before the rulers or the authorities, the Holy Spirit will come to their aid and teach them what they ought to say. (vs 11, 12)

This doesn’t mean that we are not to do anything to prepare ourselves.  Our whole life is now different as we live day by day as Christians and we are day by day, as Paul says, renewing our mind. So we can and should prepare ourselves. First of all it helps if we have worked through in our own minds what we actually believe: about our faith, about current affairs, about the way we interpret the Scriptures.  We may be questioned about our faith by someone who genuinely wants to know or by someone opposed to it. Could you say, if asked, or interject into a conversation, why it is that you believe in God, and in the God who cares enough about us to do something about our guilt and pain?   It doesn’t require some highbrow intellectual argument. People respond more to genuine commitment and compassion than to a triumphant winning of an argument.

Or we might be called upon to stand out in a group by standing up for what we believe is right, against the others. They are dismissing certain moral standards as being old-fashioned and we believe they still apply. They are buying pirated music discs and we know it is wrong. They are mocking someone because of their colour or background and we think that it is cruel. What do we do? Keep quiet and sneak away? Or say something to make them think again?  We need the help and strength of the Spirit and the commitment to stand up for our faith, no matter what, and if we want to speak out, the Spirit will give us the words to say.

Lenten Meditation Number 21: Differences and Judgment

 

Reading: Romans 12:3-8; 14:10-12

Henry Ford is quoted as saying that when choosing one of his motor cars, you could have any colour you wanted as long as it was black. Now we have such a choice as boggles the mind. Different makes, to begin with; Toyotas, BMWs, Hyundais, Fords, and many more. Then there are different models and having decided on a model there is a choice of colours. – maybe. Often we are back to Ford’s choice, which in SA is usually white. But a car is still a car.

The same is true of people. We vary tremendously. We come from different races, different cultures, different religious backgrounds. On top of that we have different personality types, extroverts, introverts, with different talents, some musical, some good at organisation. And so we could go on. But a person is still a person. We can sometimes meet Christians who differ from us in all sorts of ways, yet we still feel a bond with them. We have had such who come and stay on Volmoed and we feel as though we have been friends forever. Or we can meet Christians who seem alien, who we don’t want to be with.  We have had such here as well. Why do we react negatively to them? We sense something in them at odds with what we can also call, along with Paul, “the mind of Christ Jesus”. It is their spirit. They are judgmental, uncaring, full of themselves. We sense it in the long run even if we are at first more accepting.

Now we are put to the test. In judging them or anyone else we meet, are we being judgmental? And is there a difference between judging someone else and being judgmental? The answer begins in verse 3 of Romans chapter 12: “not to think of yourself more highly than you ought to think, but to think with sober judgment.” I know we do mostly belittle ourselves, laughing off any praise we receive. Sometimes some of us do under-rate ourselves, and others on the other hand, pretend to under-rate themselves but secretly still think too much of their abilities and status. Do we listen to the Spirit and the community of faith so that we come to what Paul calls a sober judgment of ourselves?

And forming a sober judgment about others? Again we need the discernment of the Spirit and the help of the community of faith, as long as the community is led by the true spirit. And how do we tell this? By the hall-mark of Christians – their love for one another.  If it is love that rules, then the rest, truth and good judgment, will follow.

In this Julian of Norwich agrees. “Here we may see that Christ himself is that love, and does to us as he teaches us to do; for he wishes us to be in undiminished, everlasting love towards ourselves and our fellow Christians; but we must unreservedly hate sin and endlessly love the soul as God loves it.”    (Julian of Norwich, Showings, chapter 40)

Just as we “tell the truth in love” we judge others in love.  Just as we “do to others as we would want them to do to us”, so we judge others as we ourselves would want to be judged. And always we listen to the leading of the Spirit.

 

Lenten Meditation Number 20: Growth

 

Reading: Romans 12: 1,2

Some of us are lucky to have babies in the family and to see them often as they grow up. Watching them learn to talk is fascinating. First they attempt to copy the sounds they hear in a stream of meaningless noises. Then the moment they say ta-ta or mama and realize it means something – that ta-ta goes with a wave of the hand and mama with the person who feeds them – is joyful for them and us. But that is not enough, and they want to learn more and more through constant babble with confirmation and encouragement from others. And as we know there is no end to learning.

Does this apply to our Christian life as well? Not that the two are separate, and should be kept apart, but we have seen how we are new creatures in Christ and constantly need to be aware that we should be such in every aspect of our lives. It is not business as usual, except we go to church on Sundays. We are now always open to learn new ways of being Christ’s disciples. Learning with our minds so we change the way we understand ourselves and our world and learning new ways of emotional and spiritual being.

Paul gives four points in his letter to the Romans in the passage above:

  1. Present your bodies to God as a spiritual worship. Body and spirit go together. What is spiritual is also physical. It is what we do in our every-day lives. For instance, when I get irritated with someone, is it the old me that responds or have I learnt new ways of dealing with my irritation? How do I treat my body in relation to indulging it or keeping it in good shape? These are both also Christian decisions.
  2. Do not be conformed to this world. Your life must not be a copy of the rest of human-kind, even though our society is based on Christian values, it has often moved far from them. How so I see use of the army to keep us safe? What about the wages of unskilled workers? How do I make other ethical choices? These are not always straight-forward and so we need to learn from each other with careful thought. The popular view is seldom right.
  3. Be transformed by the renewing of your minds. Your mind is spiritual too. It leads the way in transformation. What do you fill your mind with? How do you use it? That matters. How do I learn how to read the Bible with integrity?
  4. The aim of this is to act in good and acceptable and perfect ways. That is according to what God wants. That seems an unattainable aim. But are we able we keep it in mind and strive to attain it?

The rest of the chapter is a list of ways in which Christians should act. Read through it – it’s a good check list.  It starts with how we live with other Christians and goes on to living with those who do not believe, even those who set out to harm us. It is something that does not come easily. It takes a lifetime of purposeful growth.

 

Lenten Meditation Number 19: When Tragedy Strikes

 

Reading: Jeremiah 7:8-15

My sister and brother-in-law had just left after we had spent the  weekend with them and their family. It was such a fun-filled time together. That evening we had a phone call to tell us that a good friend, who we regard as close enough to be our daughter, was in hospital and had just been diagnosed with terminal cancer. We were knocked sideways and sat dazed, staring at each other. It took us back, of course, to the day we received news of our son’s tragic death. How do we deal with tragedies like this? – And at one time or another we all face them.

Did God do it? Is it God’s will? Should we accept it as such? Julian of Norwich, who I find a great help, was led to see that “God does everything that is done”. She found it difficult to think that way and so do I. God surely isn’t behind the tragedies that happen.

The Israelites to whom Jeremiah addressed his word, believed rather that the bad things that happened were a punishment for sin. Because the nation had forsaken God he would bring down disaster on them. I don’t see things panning out like that either.

So how can we explain suffering and pain to help us endure it? Is it that God allows it? Julian of Norwich says of those bad things,

“For those things which are in God’s foreseeing wisdom since before time, which duly and to his glory he always guides to their best conclusion, as things come about.”..

We put bad happenings down to chance because we are blind and ignorant, she says and goes on,

“For I know well that in our Lord’s sight there is no chance; and therefore I was compelled to admit that  everything which is done is well done, for our Lord God does everything.”

The bottom line is that we can’t explain why tragedy happens, and we are never likely to. For we don’t have the foreseeing wisdom that God has, and we are caught in the blindness of sin.

We can cry out – and we do “Why, why, why??” but there are no answers.  Why did God make Jesus die? Or why did he allow Jesus to die? We no longer see a line from sin to punishment in tragedy.  We don’t know why it happens – and certainly can’t see that it is for the best.. We can only know that the end result is for or can be for our benefit, and that it is all done because God loves us.

Lord, I try to understand life and the things that happen

With my mind,

With the insights that have grown over the years:

I try to avoid an emotional response:

I try to avoid being sucked into the rumours and

Fears of the secular world,

I look for your presence,

For your hand at work:

But I am feeble and blind

And it is dark,

So very dark.

 

Lord, you are God,

The God who made us and everything there is.

Are you in everything you made?

Does your hand still hold it all in love?

Direct it to the end you have purposed for it?

With the same power and wisdom and love

With which you made it?

 

Julian felt greatly tested when this insight came to her,

And so do I.

Could she accept this?

When so much she saw showed the opposite;

A world God-forsaken, like ours.

 

In a leap of faith, she believed

And so do I, but….

Help me Lord,

It is dark,

So very dark,

And I am feeble and blind.

 

May some comfort and acceptance come to us when tragedy strikes and may we find the good that comes from it and not fall into despair.